Know without a doubt that your soul is eternal and the law of cause and affect is severe and that when you disobey god's mandates and hurt other living entities and degrade yourself by having illicit sex you are held accountable. I am sorry, that no one taught you this truth about how sacred your sexuality is. I promise you that staying celibate is the best choice that you will ever make. And if you stay celibate all your life you will achieve great spiritual success. If you choose to have sex it has to be with your husband or the wife that you have chosen to be with in this life time.
Whatever you think is cool and passionate about illicit sex is absolutely wrong. Whatever the music you listen to in the radio says about sex or love is absolutely wrong. Whatever you watch in T.V or what the Hollywood movies teach you about sex and love is absolutely wrong. If your friend or friends tell you that illicit sex is a good idea they are very wrong. If anyone tells you that illicit sex is good and healthy, that person wants to hurt you. Having illicit sex is literally raping yourself and degrading your human evolution. If your friends in school or anyone mocks or bullies you and tells you that you have a mental illness because you are choosing to love yourself and love Krsna know that whatever that person is saying about you or to you, they are literally saying it about themselves, they are cursing themselves, and you just stay strong and stay celibate no matter what.
There was a time where the concept of Hell was ridiculous and funny to me! Now, I know that hell is real, this material world is considered a hellish planet and there are worse hells than this one. I promise that if in fact you have degraded yourself by having illicit sex you can purify yourself and receive mercy from god by chanting the Hare Krsna Maha Mantra daily for the rest of your life and you don't have to belong to a religious movement. However, the mercy that has been given to you by Sri Krsna Chaitanya Mahaprabhu by giving you the opportunity and the easiest way that you can purify yourself so that your conditioned soul does not stay trapped forever in the cycle of reincarnation by chanting the Hare Krsna Maha Mantra does not mean that you can chant the Hare Krsna Maha Mantra and continue to have illicit sex, if you chant the Hare Krsna Maha Mantra and continue to have illicit sex you are committing offences against the holy name ( the Hare Krsna Maha Mantra) and you will experience karmic retribution. It's the same principle of going to church confessing your sins being forgiving for your mistakes and then committing the same mistakes again and then returning to the priest again and asking for forgiveness. You will experience karmic retribution if you play with god and his mercy. Hurting yourself and others while using god's name in vane is a grave offence. Don't do it.
The reason why I am telling you this secret is because Sri Krsna was merciful to me and allowed me to come to Him in my adult years after dedicating over 17 years of my life worshiping HIM through Buddhism without having real knowledge and understanding of the supreme personality of godhead Krsna . Now, His causeless mercy has delivered my soul from severe karmic retribution after committing countless offences by choosing to act like an Atheist during my youth and to continue to commit severe offenses through my practice of Buddhism.
Ignoring god's mandates and being envious of HIM is what makes us suffer even more. A servant that imitates the supreme LORD is illusion. I have resurrected from the dead so I can serve the supreme LORD and remind you that there is nothing in this material world that is more important than serving and loving god. The body you occupy is temporary and the "ONLY" reason a soul is incarnated in a human body is for god realization. Your bold ambition should be directed to the spiritual world where Life really begins. Choose Life! stay celibate! You can do what you want! Your Body your Choice!
-Sri Krsna Chaitanya is my lord and savior!